I have a job interview tomorrow

Alexei Sorokin
3 min readJul 27, 2022

Sounds trivial, right?

No.

A mid-career job interview — when you’re searching, not when you’re being headhunted — is not trivial.

I’m thinking it’s kinda like trying to start a new relationship after your decades-long marriage ended, not that I ever went through that experience. I hope I never will.

My analogy is a little misplaced because in the almost two decades of my career I was never with a single employer. I tried different things. I started in the glamorous world of investment banking and then experimented. My experiments were many. Most failed. Among other things, I failed as an entrepreneur.

This is the problem with entrepreneurship: it’s painful enough to fail and then you realize that the scar is there to stay. Once you step away from the corporate world, you’re no longer as employable as you used to be. Most companies want to see a clean, linear path. They’ll compliment you for your “interesting background”, but they won’t hire you. So you find yourself in this awkward position: overqualified for many 9 to 5 jobs, but underqualified for senior positions.

I’ve been solving my struggles by doing consulting work but there are limits to solo-consulting.

Then there is the question of me being picky. I’m very picky. I have to be excited about what I do. I have to like the people who I work with. I often think of myself as a humble person. I am in some ways. But I underestimate my own ego. When my ego encounters someone with a big ego, it expands like a balloon.

I don’t always show it. I often swallow my pride and try the work. Some of the experiences turn out absolutely awful. Last year I did work for a guy who was developing a fucking surveillance app for remote work. He wouldn’t call it that. He called it — quote — “empowering business leaders with high-quality, useful productivity metrics on team leaders”. Bullshit. Empowering meant seeing how many emails the employees are sending and how many meetings they are having. Fucking surveilling and micromanaging. Doing that gig went against my every conviction. But I still worked for this guy for a few months. He’s a successful entrepreneur by the way. He’d sold businesses before.

My interview tomorrow is for an awesome job. I love what the company is doing (biotechnology and sustainability space). I loved meeting the founder and he’s also the CEO. I enjoyed my second interview…

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Alexei Sorokin

A Russian immigrant in America, father of 4, Cambridge and Harvard Business School alum. I run and write every day. https://runningwritingliving.substack.com/